sooo tired
im tired of trying. i have done a lot in my life already, i had alot to be proud of but thats over. im worthless now. i no longer give a shit about school. i have minimal theatrical talent. i am truely worthless. no one loves me, andi doubt they ever will. ive had my heart crushed so many times i wonder if i still am the same person i think i am. i have no purpose. i offer nothing to society and i have no reason to live. sure i have friends, but me being gone wont matter much. no one depends on me, or needs me. it even seems like no one fucking cares. i put on this whole im nice and happy rutine, but im fucking tired of it. but i always slip back to being the shoulder to cry on. i mean im a nice guy, but no one gives a shit about nice guys. and im anything but attractive. i dont think anyone has found me attractive in a long while, and i believe it will stay that way. im ugly, nice and no one fucking cares.

goodbye everyone

btw: my house was sold tonight i leave the first week of march. time to "live" it up, like anyone will notice im gone.